I’ve went through this twice - the grief of losing a pet. I won’t ever get to pet him, pick him up, call his name, he won’t ever be here again and nothing can replace him! He slept in the same room as me.Īnd it really really sucks. It wasn’t until recently I realized that I’m lonely. I don’t have to I know but even the mere thought of crying in front of someone (even my mom) is unbearable to me. It’s miserable, I am dealing with this all on my own. He came out of my room that night and slept next to me when I was at my computer - and I GOT UP AND WALKED AWAY I left and went to sleep and I LEFT HIM TO SUFFER!Īnd worse yet, I hate crying in front of people so I have to hold on all my emotions and crying until I’m alone. I wasn’t there! I was asleep, I feel so guilty about this. I feel incredibly sad over all this even though the night before it happened I already knew it was too late. I have no idea what disease took my dog… but we tried all the medicines to stop it from getting worse. part of me wonders if it was or if by waiting did it make it too late? I wanted to go to the vet, but my mom kept saying no. Instead of he sick somewhere in late January. He was old, but if he could have died from old age I might have grieved a little less. And now, now it seems like I’m stuck in this fog and I think about how my dog won’t be there anymore… I mean I knew eventually I’d feel this way. There were so many things I was looking forward to this gear…. I honestly think this is the worst pain in existence grief. I’m at that “uncontrollable cry” stage and everything I think and say lets the flood gates loose. Writing this out is harder than I thought. I can’t even think about eating popcorn without crying. He was always there for me, whenever I was sick or sad he’d always lay his head on my lap. On Saturday morning I lost my dog of 12-13 years.
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